This is what I said to myself for a long time. I have debated with myself for years that I needed to change the trajectory of my carrier, not that is was anything wrong with it, quite the opposite. It had never been as stable, and reliable for years.
Maybe because of that. I felt that I was not doing enough. It was time to really push and have a challenge. That I had more to give, more knowledge to share. It has not been a lot of challenges in teaching lately. It has not felt like I could develop so much more than what I had already done.
There is just so many times and different way that one can talk about present perfect or how to use conditional #3 before you have discovered most ways. A balance between teaching and consulting is what I do think would be the best. As teaching is something I love doing.
Starting Something New?
It is really scary at the same time. I am 37.5 years, single mom; no trust fund ;) or particular contact in my back pocket that I can use to make it happen.
I am no big self seller and talking about myself and selling myself is nothing that comes naturally anymore ;)
That is the “bad” part with self-work and development, I recognized I was rather obnoxious and realized that tooting my own horn was not very smooth.
What I have come to understand is that I can just toot my own horn in a slightly less obnoxious and overwhelming way. :D
Do It!
I decided to throw myself out from the cliff and go for it. For real. I had the feeling though that I was not doing enough.
I felt that I had to constantly work and connect and find ways how to bring awareness to people because I was not doing it enough.
Should I pay for this ad to have this potential outcome or should I bring some organic flow to it? It is an absolutely mystery. Whatever I did I felt that it was not enough, it was bad and it was meaningless.
Around and around it has gone inside me.
I feel that you are not doing enough.
Then it hit me.
Positive Psychology and Communication
I am feeling all those things above. But I will not blame myself and say things in this way. I will approach myself with compassion and from a positive point of view. We all should.
Saying to anyone, “I feel” and then adding on “that you” the only thing you have done is to put the blame on the other person.
Yes, you feel that the other one is wrong, you are right. Blaming. I feel stressed and nervous because I have the need for stability. I feel nervous because I am not sure which road to go. I am stressed because I need income to pay my rent. I feel worried because I have no idea where my next client will come from.
I feel that you are not doing enough is accusing and blaming. Of course, I felt bad saying this to myself.
Coming from it from a positive and curious point of view made all the change. Let us all stop the blaming&shaming, towards others and ourselves! :)
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